It is officially day 10 of no sugar. So far, I have survived and I haven’t given in. Both of these are good things. However, I have noticed a couple of things that are worth nothing about myself.
1) Drinking makes the cravings really bad. Last Friday night, Alex and I decided to get a bottle of cheap wine at Trader Joes and some baked cheese puffs and have happy hour at home. Both were acceptable to the new diet, but felt just enough like cheating to be fun for a Friday night. Bad decision. Half a bottle of wine later, my desire to walk to 7-Eleven and raid whatever sweets they had was really intense. Not fun nor good. Lesson learned: must keep the drinking down. Upside: one glass of champagne for dinner tonight seemed to be just fine.
2) Chips should also be on the list. I couldn’t stop eating those cheese puffs until they were all gone. Ergo, they go on the addictive list and should not be eaten.
3) I am actually not addicted to rich foods even if they are not healthy for me. Tonight I made a lovely Julia Child meal because I hadn’t really cooked in awhile and I wanted to create. I made chicken breasts with a yummy port cream sauce, creamed spinach and a wild rice pilaf. It was lovely. It did have just over a half a cup of butter in it and 2 cups of half and half in it so it wasn’t particularly healthy, but I found half way through the chicken that I just wasn’t hungry anymore and I could easily just stop which was a pleasant discovery.
4) Sugar/sweets are everywhere. I never really realized it until I wasn’t eating sugar, but it is all over the place. I run into probably 10 times a day easily. This means there are 10 times a day when I have to repeat to myself that I am not depriving myself of this, but instead this is a decision that I made voluntarily and I intend to stick to it. Society should take note of this and contemplate doing something about it. No freaking wonder our country is overweight!
I also have this constant conversation going on in my head about whether I will be able to try small amounts once the initial month is up or not. However, I keep trying to remind myself that I need to get through this month first, then I will see what happens next.
I love sugar. I always have. It was always the thing that I turned to when I was sad and depressed and also when I was happy and celebrating something. I have many wonderful memories of baking with my family while I was growing up. One of my favorite things to de-stress is to go into the kitchen and bake or cook something, no matter what it is.
However, I have found recently that once I start eating sweets I can’t stop. It is almost impossible for me to stop before the last of it is gone. The interesting thing is that I don’t crash from the sugar so I don’t really have a check point where I know I have gone too far. The more I look at it lately, the more it feels like an addiction. I realize it sounds a bit silly. I mean I am talking about sugar, not some illicit drug. I am not overweight and am a healthy person. But the more I think about it, the more I realize how much it controls my life. It is always my go to in a stressful situation to make it better. I don’t drink, I sugar binge.
So I have decided that I am going to try to take sugar out of my life for the present time. I want to really see how I am without it. Can I break the addiction and not crave it so much anymore? Alex and my two younger sisters have also decided to join me in this quest. They are intent on cutting it out for a month and then somehow trying to slowly add some back in to bring moderation to how much sugar we consume. I am not sure that I am going to be able to do that. However, we will see, one day at a time.
The ground rules, as discussed by my sisters and I, are that we aren’t to eat anything that is composed of more than one-third sugar (mainly refined sugar), but this also includes no guzzling of maple syrup, honey or agave (we are hardcore!). However, there is a concession for not more than 2 tablespoons of my homemade low sugar jam with peanut butter and toast. We are allowed one yogurt a day and I am allowed a small amount of agave in my chai. The overarching idea is that we don’t want to allow ourselves anything that could be binged on to satisfy sugar cravings. We are also trying to eat healthily so that fat doesn’t replace sugar. We are not currently trying to lose weight, just get used to the no sugar. We may try that later as we all seem to have this 15 pounds that it would be pleasant to have gone.
We started on January 2 and so I am at day 3. It has been a bit trying so far. My first day there were Sprinkles cupcakes at work to celebrate a co-workers birthday and one of my managers was insistent that I have one. I didn’t, but it was really difficult as Sprinkles are so yummy! On day two, we borrowed a lawn mower from our very nice next door neighbor who works at a good bakery. He gave us a box full of pastries including a whole bunt cake. Alex about lost it at that point. There was even a pain au chocolate which is Alex’s favorite. The pastries went into the trunk where they stayed until Alex had the wonderful idea to give them to the guys at our bike shop when we dropped off his bike to get it fixed. Today has been decent so far, so almost three days down!